Today was postapocalyptic. Yesterday, I slammed into a giant iceberg and started drowning in the cold dark waters of my mind. Today, I felt emotionally and physically exhausted from such an intense struggle of survival. I am realizing more and more how the physical can affect the mind, and how the mind can affect the physical. I am ovulating, and I know this has something to do with my mood yesterday. I know I would have felt fear over losing a weeks worth of work last week, but I know my ovulating intensified the experience. Today, my psoas is acting up, and I am having hip pain into my leg, down to my knee and wrapped into my lower back. I am wondering if this is caused by either the ovulation, or maybe I internalized my mood yesterday. Ok. No maybe. I did internalize my fear yesterday, and perhaps this pain is its manifestation.
So the cycle would continue because the pain puts me in a pissy mood, except that I just did an hour of yoga and dosed up on Advil. You see, I am learning to take care of myself…and especially my body. If I hurt or am hungry or am tired, I don’t function well. My mind goes to its comfortable place of panic, fear and negativity. So, the more I can get a hold of my physical health, the better attitude I am able to keep. Of course, the better attitude I can keep, the better my physical health.
So, body health first. That means taking care of what I need to physically, which is eating healthy, exercising, doing my yoga, getting a mammogram and doctor’s checkup and if my new hormonal herbs don’t work, going to the doctor to try to alleviate the peri-menopause symptoms. Or maybe read Christiane Northrup again.
Think about it for your life. When my mom was here on vacation, I could see this pattern in her. When she was tired or hungry, she had a harder time staying positive. So, let me know. What do you think?
My Christmas tree! She’s about 3 1/2 feet tall! Isn’t she beautiful?!!
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